The Fear

There are many recipes that I would love to make, but many things seem to get in the way, whether it's fear of the recipe going wrong, time, or just waiting for the right occasion. I have decided to overcome my fear; I have found the time and have an occasion - good friends coming over for dinner.

The fear giving recipe I have challenged myself to make is from Nigella Lawson "How to be a domestic goddess", gooey chocolate stack. I was determined meringue and creme patisserie were not going to stop me. (If it all goes wrong I knew I had home made vanilla ice cream to fall back on, another first. Easy)

Here we go. Luckily for me on my 30th birthday last year, lovely man bought me Kenwood. My dream, he is like the George Clooney of my kitchen, smooth, grey, classic and very easy on the eye.

I decided to start with the meringue, thankfully I have a few hens (more on them another day) and lots of eggs that need using up. George and his ostrich egg sized whisk made very short work of my 6 egg whites; soft and peaky in seconds.

Once all the other ingredients were folded in, it was time for the oven. I followed Nigella's advice and left the meringue to cool in the oven over night. Come day break I was there, excitedly opening my oven door. (It was almost as exciting as Christmas day)

Wow, I had made meringue, and it was surprisingly easy, not scary and did not take up as much time as I thought it might. This left me one last task; the creme patisserie. The fear was back, but now I was determined this desert was going to be a great success. I am happy to report, it was!

This has taught me a great lesson, I can do things that I've convinced myself I can not do. I have now decided I should make a list of all those things I think I can not do, and do them!